Friday, September 10, 2010


I hate blogging. I am boring and don't do anything fun. EVER.

The end.

Monday, September 6, 2010

Arty Update

What's new with me you wonder? Well!!! Quite a bit actually! My nephew was born a few days ago......and he is super awesomely cute! ok now that I think about it that is the only thing exciting that has happened.
I'm trying to get on top of things, art wise. Clearly I am having a hard time with this as you can tell by the fact that I am writing instead of drawing. I am going to do some work today, there was just alot of other stuff that had to be done know, laundry, dishes and general cleaning. Now I'm just trying to get in the right frame of mind to draw. It doesn't help that I can hear some guy upstairs clomping around. It's so damn loud he sounds like he's gonna come through the ceiling. I hate apartments.

So I have done some arty things recently. I've been keeping a business/idea journal for my artwork. Like so I remember the shows I have done and stuff that I have submitted to. This is great for me cause I have a habit of not putting down dates, and when it comes to writing a resume I have no clue about when an event took place.
I've submitted to a few art events/shows lately. Haven't heard back yet, but hey! I don't get my hopes up about this stuff cause I think it's who you know and who you socialize with that gets you shows. And of course my problem with being anti social doesn't work for me so well.
I'm going to submit to Supercrawl for September.25th. I know it's a huge event and if I could get in there it would be great. *finger's crossed* I'm just a little concerned about my work being hung outside....what if it rains??

The Skateboard show at Loose Canon Art Gallery turned out really good! I checked it out and there were some freakin' fantastic boards. I'm really happy I got to be part of it! Thanks to anyone who went and checked it out.

Ok enough of my boring life.....I'm gonna go look for more things to submit my art to and do some actual artwork.

MAKE ART.....NOT FRIENDS!!! hahahhaha

Monday, August 16, 2010

What's up four eyes?

I spent most of today working on a new drawing commission. It's going really well and thanks to my new glasses my eyes don't feel like they are going to fall out of my face!
I still feel like I don't have enough time to do everything I need to. When I get on a roll with my drawing I can't stop....anyone who is creative can understand that I think. So where does that leave the dishes? still in the sink obviously.

It's really shitty knowing I have to go back to the dungeon again tomorrow. Don't get me wrong I like shopping for clothes and things but that place is like night of the living dead, day after day after day. Someone needs to hire a zombie killer for that place.

On a happier note, the skateboard show looks fantastical! Thanks to anyone who went out to see it! I'm sure it's up for roughly a month, though I could be mistaken. You should really check it out! There are so many awesome artists in Hamilton. I don't know why I'm so shocked sometimes. I suppose it's cause I spend my days in Jackson Square and it's hard to imagine a creative world outside that.
So I guess the art crawl was packed. I honestly don't like that stuff at all and don't usually go to art crawls...too many people :P I checked out the skateboard show pretty much as soon as it started and then went home. After standing at work for 8 hours I didn't feel like walking around looking at art. I was cranky to say the least.
But I heard there was a great turn out so I'm happy about that! I would love to be part of another group show again. It's a great way to get some art out there without the pressure of a solo show and doing it all yourself.

Well that's about all for now. I'm tired and I need to get ready to kill some zombies tomorrow....or atleast stun them with my death stare. JOY!

Monday, July 26, 2010

Really this one is about Art....I promise!

(this is not the finished piece but it pretty much looks like this!)

My skateboard is done! Well for the moment. I know every artist has those urges after the piece is complete to fix it or touch it up....which really means it's not done. It will never be done. I just have to accept and learn when to stop. I've learned this the hard way by working on something so much that I ended up ruining it. But sometimes you gotta learn the hard way! I used acrylics on the board...dollar store ones to be exact! hahaha. I had to give it a light sanding before I did my outline cause it was a bit too shiny to draw on with pencil. I haven't varnished it and I don't think I will, only cause my apt is tiny and varnish stinks.....soooo yeah, I would love to varnish it at some point but part of me is always afraid it will change the look of it and I kind of dig the matte look. I'm actually really relieved that the skateboard is done. I haven't had much time lately and I've got a few projects on the go. I find it really hard to divide my time and give each project enough attention.I have a really bad habit of biting off way more than I can chew. I have a hard time saying no to people when it comes to something artistic. I really want to be involved with different organizations and such but what ends up happening is that I can't follow through. There just isn't enough time in the day for me. Working five days a week makes it super difficult to be creative. The one thing that really sucks is that on atleast one of my days off a week I end up painting all day and the other one I end up doing cleaning and other household chores so I never get to hang out with my boyfriend :(
But anyhow I'm not gonna whine too much....I'm hoping that all this work I'm doing will at some point pay off and I will have the luxury of spending my time how I would like! Dream on right!? hahaha
Well now that the skateboard can be crossed of my list I can focus on finishing my latest pencil crayon drawing and starting the two commissions that I've been procrastinating on. Of course I also need to do a few more pencil crayon drawings just in case I do get chosen to do a solo art show at the Gallery on 4.
Oh man the list just keeps going on and on.......but I don't mind. I really want to do something with my art. I need to.

Monday, July 12, 2010

Thursday hurry up and get here!!!

So I'm super duper excited about next pay because it's almost like a freebie....well not really since I actually worked for it! July we get paid 3 times so this one I can buy stuff I've wanted for a while and pay some extra money on my credit cards (eek!) I already have my list of stuff that I'm going to buy. I'm such a nerd cause they are all books! Books that I've wanted for a while now but haven't been able to afford it. I also like to think that these are books that will help to inspire and motivate me to do more with my artwork (atleast that's what I tell myself!)
Here's the first book....Francesca Woodman, her photography is fucking brilliant. I'm so happy to have discovered her!

Here's the next one...Jenny Saville. Seriously what can I say. She's a modern day master....absolutely fucking brilliant in every way. I want to be her!

And this is the awesome book that pretty much tells you everything about the art world and how to make a living from it. It's like the bible for artists!

I am going to order them on Thursday and I can't wait to get them!!! I will add them to my awesome collection of art books....which are all still at my mums :(
I really miss all my stuff. I know people think I'm a pack rat and I have too much stuff but it's all stuff I love so much. I love to have stuff surrounding me, it inspires me to make art. Chaos works well for me creatively. I think having an empty apartment with not much in it is like hell to me. Right now in this apartment I don't have much of my stuff at all....I mean I make do but when I want to look at a certain book to maybe get some inspiration I can't because it's not here. It bothers me alot.
When I look at photos of my old apartment it makes me so sad. It was decorated exactly how I liked it, I always had something to look at....each thing had it's own little story or memory. *sigh*
I'm hoping that in the very near future we will be moving. Hopefully somewhere that will feel like an actual home and not just some place that feels like a pit stop on the road to a real life. This past year has been a constant struggle, this is definitely not the place for us to live. There's nothing remotely redeeming about it, and I regret ever moving here. But I guess it's pointless thinking about it, all I can do is keep looking for somewhere else to live. Now when I look for somewhere else to live I will make sure of many things. I will not live in a highrise, or even a three story walk up. I will only live in a house that has a maximum of 2 or 3 tenants. What I really want is to live in my own house. I've just had it with living in a building with other people. No more.
Soooo anyhow. I gotta go paint some more.

Friday, July 9, 2010

This is how I feel today.

Sunday, July 4, 2010

Lap Painting...An Art in Itself

Today it is 9000 degrees. I'm trying to paint but because I'm using acrylics it is drying much faster than usual. It's coming along though. It's quite awkward to paint on a skateboard. It's such an odd shape and I have to keep shifting it around on my lap to work on it. Yes....on my lap cause I have nowhere else to paint. Whatever, it's worked for me for 30 or so years so why stop now! Who needs a studio? I've come to realize that in my lifetime I may never acquire enough money to have one. Soooooo.......lap painting it is for me! :P hmmm....sounds kind of dirty.....well it is! It's messy and everything around me and my lap are covered with paint.
I'm really just taking a short break cause I was sweating to can I sweat when I'm not even moving?

Change of topic. I feel like I'm turning into a recluse. Well not turning into, cause I kinda was before....but I'm finding that I have less and less reasons to go out. I'm just not interested in anything outside my little bubble anymore. Maybe I'm becoming paranoid, or maybe I'm too self centered. I just can't see any reason to go and drink and waste time and money. But then again people who do that are more carefree and probably have alot more fun than me. But in my mind I just can't find anything good about it. I wish I could not care about doing something with my life. I wish my only goal was to work in retail and be happy. I don't feel like I need to get recognition but I feel like I need to do something a little more substantial than working at a clothing store, for my own sanity atleast.
But then isn't that what any artist wants?

I think all artists want to belong but at the same time want to stand alone. I know for myself being compared to another artist can be flattering but at the same time all I can think is I want to have my own style.

Oh really who cares though....what's the point in analyzing? All it does is take me away from doing the actual work.

I wish that sometimes I didn't have to think so much.

Anyhow back to my lap painting.............

Sunday, June 27, 2010

Some of my favourite pieces of art

~Lucien Freud

~John William Waterhouse

~Frida Kahlo

~William Bougereau

~Jean Michel Basquiat

~Nelson Shanks

~John Singer Sargent

~Jenny Saville

Jupiter in Gemini

"They are restless, and it is difficult for them to focus on any task for long, even accumulating money."

SHIT. I just accidentally erased my blog. Forget it I'm not writing all that again.

Wednesday, June 23, 2010

dreams......fuck you

You know what I hate? dreaming that you are getting ready for work and then waking up and realizing you have to get ready again. That makes me so angry. I JUST WASHED MY HAIR IN MY DREAM THANK YOU VERY MUCH! WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHH! and now I have to go to work after getting ready twice.

Tuesday, June 22, 2010

Naps suck.

Ok so I went to sleep after I got home from the day of hell at work and I woke up at 9:00pm. Bad call. Will I never learn that napping sucks for me? First of all it takes me a good hour atleast to fall asleep and then of course I wake up so late that now I'm gonna be up all night. Pooh. Now what? This sucks. To all the people who love naps.....SUCK IT! They are not good, they were invented by satan to fuck up my sleeping patterns.

Good morning!

Monday, June 21, 2010

I do nothing, therefore I am ......nothing

Let me start this off by saying I'm feeling extremely pissy today. Mostly with myself. I can't quite bring myself to do anything. You know those days where all you can do is daydream and wish you were somewhere else? well it's one of those days. I feel like I want to go for a walk and get some fresh air, but it's bloody hot out. I feel like I want to create something amazing but I feel like a blob of goo. I just can't do anything. I decided to cut my hair and I took some photos cause it's a little less time consuming and since I'm not officially a photographer I can take shitty photos and people can't say anything to me about it.
I've also been wasting my time looking at artists and photographers I love.....I shouldn't do that if I'm in a mood, all it does is make me feel like I'm not very good. Plus this book I'm reading on famous people who are mentally ill doesn't really help me. It kind of freaks me out to be honest. Fuck. This is one of my days off and I'm wasting it. I can't even relax. I can't even lay down on a couch and read a book leisurely cause we don't have a couch. I can't even lay in bed cause someones in there napping. So I get to sit at my computer desk and think of ways to amuse myself.
Is this what my life has come to? Right now it feels pretty fucking pathetic. I mean I know not everyday should be some grand spectacle but I mean all I do is work at my crummy job and then do nothing when I'm not there. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck.
Some of you might be saying why not hang out with friends? well I don't have any. I used to, but not anymore. I think that's because of my own lack of interest in keeping a friendship and others lack of interest in me too. I'm not very fun I have to admit. I don't drink or smoke or do drugs. I'm not a fan of hanging out in bars with large groups of people. So where does that leave me? it leaves me sitting here writing about nothing in particular and trying to feel like I have something of interest to say.

Well I will leave you with some photos I took today.

Saturday, June 19, 2010


I'm featured on hamilton makes art's blog!!!! Check me out! WOO HOO!! I'm so happy I could die. Just kidding.....I like to quote little snippets from movies that I guess no one else would get but me. Yeah I'm lame but whatever I think I'm funny!

ART RULES!!! hahahaha. Okay I'll stop now.

Just click on the title and it will link you to hamilton makes art's blog!!

Sunday, June 13, 2010

I did it!

Well I'm proud to say that I have finished my artist statement and resume. In all honestly I never thought that I'd come to the point in my life where I would feel like it was worth my while to get into the art scene. Now more than ever I feel like it's my time to really work hard to get myself out there. I've been told all my life that I should be doing something with my art, but you know what.... I never felt ready until now. Some people get a late start and I'm fine with that. I'm a late bloomer as they say.
Now the next step is to submit my artwork to an art gallery.....or more than one, because I highly doubt that the first go is gonna land me a gallery. Who knows how long it might take me to get representation but I'm gonna do my best. In the mean time I will try to have as many shows as I can and work like crazy on my art.
There's so much stuff that I want to do and I'm really excited to get things going. I know the first step is that I'm going to have to do some more socializing and schmoozing. That's tough being that I'm basically a shut in. That means going out to James St. Art Crawls and meeting people. That freaks me out!! I'm definitely socially awkward and always either end up hanging around the outskirts of the action or looking like a total bitch. I need someone to hold my hand and drag me out! hahaha!
This weeks goal is to finish the pencil crayon drawing I have been working on. I need to decide what I will paint on my skateboard for the show, then draw the outline atleast. I think that I should also probably do a cover letter for my resume....but I don't think at this point its absolutely necessary. Hmmmmm what else? well there are a million more things but I think these are the most important at the moment.
Tomorrow is the first of my two days off. I just worked six days in a row so I'm really happy to be able to have some time to really sit down and concentrate on my art. Now I'm just trying to think of what else is on my list that I can do tonight! No rest for the wicked!!!!

Monday, June 7, 2010

WAAHHH I need a

Well I picked up my skateboard today for the show coming up. I'm pretty excited to be a part of it. I've never painted on a skateboard before so we'll see how it goes.

I feel like I have so many art projects on the go right now and I don't know where to start. I'm trying to finish my series of pencil crayon drawings and also work on a new series of paintings. Also my little side project of crossword drawings....they are mostly just for fun but I love doing them. I'm not sure if it's better for me to concentrate on one project at a time or to work on them all at once. I guess it doesn't really matter, that's just how I work. I have a short attention span when it comes to focusing on my art,I think I need a bunch of different things available to me so when I'm bored of one I can work on another.

I really wish I had a studio. I just have this feeling that I probably won't ever have a proper one. It really sucks to be stuck at a little desk with all your stuff crammed onto it that constantly fall off. I'd say the space I get to work with is about 2 ft by 4 ft. Meaning it's fucking TINY! most of the time I have my work sitting on my lap and my supplies on my desk.
Sometimes it really gets on my nerves but I really should be used to it since that's pretty much how I've worked my whole life.
Maybe a studio would be too overwhelming for me.....hahaha. Maybe being squashed into a little space is what helps my creativity.
I can't deny that I'm extremely jealous of anyone with a studio though. I feel like I deserve one. Maybe one day! I have hope.

In the last six months that I've lived at this apartment I think I've done some of my best paintings. So maybe all the hell and stress I've been through has helped me with that. I guess that might explain the darkness that seems to be coming out in my artwork. Though I would give anything to have some degree of normalcy at the moment.
Being continuously stressed might be helping my art right now but in the long run it's not doing much good for my health.

My goals for the rest of this year are to move, first and foremost. Get an art show. Get my stupid feet fixed. Hopefully start making enough money off my art to quit my stupid job!! hahahaha.....ok well that's a little far fetched but maybe in time it will happen.

Monday, May 31, 2010

A little bit of blood makes everything better's red. I love red lipstick. Blood can make me feel queasy or it can make me happy. Blood in drawings is great. Here's some. Enjoy!

Al Pacino

What can I say about Al Pacino? well....I love him. People always make fun of him for the whole 'Hoo ahh' thing from Scent of a Woman....but fuck you guys...I love that movie. He's friggin' awesome in it, and you know it. So if you make fun of Al in my presence I will get mad at you. For those people who don't like him....have you ever watched Serpico? Dog Day Afternoon? Those are two of the best movies he's ever done and that have been made. He's brilliant in them. For those people who think Scarface is the only good movie he's ever made....well you are stupid, most of the people who like this movie are on drugs. There's no doubt that it is an awesome film but there are so many better ones. The Godfather....awesome...Carlito's Way...awesome.....Panic in Needle Park....awesome. You catch my drift. Yes he's better than Robert De Niro....yes I said it, cause it's true. So to all the Al haters....shut up. Do not comment if you have nothing but praise for him! :P

So if you are a fan of Al then check out my newest drawing and enjoy!

Sunday, May 30, 2010

Just Curious

I'm just curious as to how I get people to follow me and read my blog? HOW????? Is there such a thing as internet schmoozing that I don't know about? Anyone know any good easy ways to get my blog out there? I post it to twitter (where I have all of 35 followers! haha) and to facebook....HELP!

I'm on a roll baby!

Ok so here is another of my crossword drawings.....I wonder if I can fill the whole book? This one is of Jean Michel Basquiat. He's definitely one of my favourite artists.
Hope you like it!!!

Friday, May 28, 2010

It's early, it's really early!

Well I'm up way before I even need to go to work because I have to be up for the dudes who are bringing the screen for our window. Atleast this is only a 2 hour frame of time that they might show up. Not like phone companies that say they'll be there between 8am to 5pm. Like who the hell wants to sit around the entire day for some jerk off who pretty much does about 5 seconds of work when they get there.

Anyhow I didn't come here to rant today. I am putting up my new drawing that I did a couple of days ago.

So I've been told quite a few times that I look like Karen O from the Yeah Yeah Yeahs and I do see it and I think she's pretty awesome but people I'm older than her.....which means she looks like ME!!!!
So I thought why not do a drawing of her, I love their music and she has great style. I wonder if she realizes how much she looks like me?? hahaha
Ok here it is.....enjoy!

Have a great day friends!!! :D

Wednesday, May 26, 2010

Morbid Anatomy....oooooh

Just some images of things I'm interested in......

Tuesday, May 25, 2010

Read it and weep for me

I just spent the last half an hour vacuuming like a mad woman, and I'm still not finished. I am completely drenched. My vacuum has a broken belt so I've been using the attachment, which is why it's taking me so long. It is 1000 degrees in my apartment, I am hot. We have no air conditioner yet and the fan does nothing but blow fire onto me. I hate this apartment for sooooo many reasons that I won't go into but suffice it to say I wish I never moved here.

So yeah I ate the greatest half a sandwich that my boyfriend left for me. It's from The Augusta House and holy shit it was so yummy! So yummy that I'm writing about it. I don't know what it was called but it had grilled chicken breast with goats cheese, roasted peppers and some weird green sauce. AMAZING!!!! It could be the best sandwich I ever ate, or it could be because I hadn't eaten all day and the taste of shit probably would have been amazing cause I was so hungry! hahha...just kidding. I don't like the taste of pooh.....not that I'd know....uhhhh.....forget it!

Goats cheese. Let's pause and think about this for a second. It's good. It's really effing good. I'm lactose intolerant....just thought I'd throw that out there. So it's difficult for me to eat anything good. I do eat cheese, in the appropriate places (at home, near toilet :P) So far so good with the goat rumblings in my tummy yet. Buuuut I'll give it another half an hour. Sometimes it likes to sneak up on me. My point is (yes I have one) GOAT'S CHEESE TASTES FRIGGIN' AMAZING AND I LOVE IT!!!!!

Next topic...I got a sunburn yesterday on my shoulders, whilst on my walk to get my sunscreen. Hah...kinda ironic!

Right now I am thinking about the fact that I have to finish vacuuming and I have a really sore back and I don't want to do it. Vacuuming while bent over like an 80 year old hunchback using a little attachment that only sucks up approx. 3.8 pieces of dirt at a time is not fun. Imagine doing the entire bedroom carpet. IMAGINE!!! It hurts me. *sigh*

I have razor burn on my legs.

Thursday, May 20, 2010

My So-Called Art Life

The whole purpose of this blog was to sort of talk about my art and update all the things that happen. Well obviously at this point (the beginning stages) it's a whole lot of nothing! I'm not even sure what the hell I'm doing. I've been reading this book How to Survive and Prosper as an Artist: Selling Yourself without Selling your Soul by Caroll Michels.....and so far it's great. There are lots of good pointers and has lots of good references to other books that could potentially be helpful.It seems like a great book to own, I think I'll buy it soon!
I just feel like I don't have the time or energy to do all of this stuff, like work full time, make art, do chores and relax. It seems impossible. I work all day and when I come home my brain feels like mush. And the thing is I work my ass off and make next to nothing, so I've got nothing to show for all this hard work but back and leg problems.
What I really want to do is quit my job and make art for a living. It's just the process looks long and daunting and I know that I won't even be able to quit my job because who knows how long it could take to get anywhere in the art field. I don't know how to go about it. I get 2 days off a week and in those 2 days I need to do all kinds of chores obviously, I need to catch up on sleep, I like to hang out with my boyfriend, I need to work on my art. But you and me and everyone knows that's not enough time to do all those things. There aren't enough hours to get it all done.
It makes it really hard for me to go to sleep cause I'm always thinking that the time would be better spent working on my paintings or drawings. I sometimes feel guilty for sleeping and wasting my time. Relaxing makes me feel like I'm wasting my time too, and then on the same hand I start writing a blog when I could be doing something worthwhile.
I know I could start drawing right now but #1 my back hurts if I sit for too long and #2 I'm not in the right frame of mind after being at work all day and #3 if I do start I might not stop and I have to work tomorrow.
ZOINKS!!!!! how do other people handle this?? Tell me all you other artists out there! What is your secret? Any and all advice is very welcome.

I did side track off into doing some painting recently which I thought might be my new series for a show (might still be if I have time) but I think it's safe to continue on my pencil crayon path at the moment because I have a larger body of work in that medium. Here's my most recent finished self portrait!

and here's just a little taste of the new still life I'm working on!

There's still alot more to go but I'm pretty excited to see how it turns out!

Man it's only 9:56pm and I feel exhausted already and I'm pretty tempted to have a coffee. I know that's a bad call though, I have a hard enough time sleeping as it is! Maybe I will just go lay in bed and read my book and take some notes......I gotta start somewhere I guess.

Bye for now friends!

Wednesday, May 19, 2010

Ridley Scott give me back the 2 1/2 hours of my life that you stole!!

Honestly. What the hell can I say about Robin Hood? Oh I know....IT SUCKED!!!!! Ridley Scott has lost it clearly...he had to rip off his own movie Gladiator to make this piece of crap. I was pretty excited to see Russell Crowe, I'm a big fan of his. I'm sorry Russell that you made a very bad career choice. Of course this is just my opinion, but I'm right. So there. There were so many scenes that if you put on a gladiator outfit and stuck them in Rome you'd never know the difference. It was laughable....I did actually LOL...hahha. Apparently according to my boyfriend I don't have an indoor voice....hahha....well I don't think I can be blamed for this one. If I would have paid I would have gone back out and asked for a refund.
But it absolutely kills me that they can spend many millions you ask?? How about $200 million!!!!....on a movie and it is still utter crap. Kinda makes me wanna barf. Why don't you throw some of that precious money over here....I'm sure I can find a good use for it. Like helping homeless people, people who are dying and starving to death. It's pretty disgusting. Imagine what that money could do?
Aaaaaand to top it all off there wasn't even one damn scene where Robin hood steals from the rich and gives to the poor. You know what the whole premise was??? It was his life before he became Robin Hood. Screw you Ridley you dink, making people believe that they are gonna see some good heroic battles. BORING!!!!!! I mean I was actually texting my sister while I was "watching" it! and I loathe people who do that, but I just couldn't help myself. I found myself wishing I was watching this version of Robin Hood and knowing that anything he'd do, he'd do it for me!

Soooooo, Robin Hood fucked up my day. Remember yesterday I was going to try and plan my time out and get things done? Well.....not so much. I did the dishes. I tried to do laundry (don't get me started) No luck picking up the skateboard today. One bonus that I didnt' expect to do was change the bed sheets! YAY ME! I was just about to sit down and draw but I needed to get my anger out, so I thought I'd write and release it! hahaha. It's working.

......sorry I just ate a sub and lost my train of thought. I'll write again later....and it will be something art related....I promise!! :D that a word?

I don't know if funnyness is a is being underlined by my spellcheck so I guess not. Though so is the word spellcheck....hmmmmm. Whatever. That is not the point of my ramblings here. I wanted to talk a little about what things make me laugh. Well.....pretty much anything actually. I think I just spent the better part of my pity party looking at those demotivational posters (there goes spellcheck again....sheesh) let me say some are totally hilarious yet at the same time cruel and wrong. Why do they make me laugh so much? For instance I saw a couple of different ones of random girls on myspace, and they unknowingly took pics of themselves with some rather embarrassing items in the room. Example...a chick looking sexy but with a pooh in the toilet which you can clearly see. Why Lord Why?? Whhyyyyyyy do you not look for those simple things that could potentially embarrass you for the rest of your life? Yet here I am laughing. I'm mean, but I cannot help it. Part of me feels terrible for the girl and part of me thinks she's stupid for being in such a hurry to put a sexy pic up on myspace. Dudes and Dudettes......c' you want to be a demotivational poster? I sure as hell don't...which is why I'll be checking for turds in any pic I take from now on!


Man I love blogging. I wish this could be my full time job. Just ranting and raving like a loony and having people like me for it rather then think I should be put away!
I wonder if it's normal to blog more than once a day. Is it? I don't know shit from shinola. I am going to blog twice,maybe three times a day,just cause I can!

I would like to leave you with this image.......I hope it makes you laugh!

Tuesday, May 18, 2010

Pity Party

These are the only types of parties I get invited to. I like it that way. I don't have to dress up all fancy and look like a little skank. I can eat whatever the hell I want and when there is only one person it's less likely that there will be physical violence when my self pitying gets out of control.

I had a long day today. Work was busy with meaningless rearranging of clothes and whatnot. It's totally draining, especially when you stop to really think about what you are doing. I feel like punching myself in the head when I hear myself start talking really seriously about my work. I know that instead of feeling sorry for myself I should just get on with what I have to do, but damn it everyone has the right to a pity party. Get out your party hat and join me...hahaha.

If you've noticed my blogs (yes the 2 that I have written so far!) might be kind of random....I don't think straight, there's no logic. I switch from one topic to another at a whim. I think it makes for more interesting reading.

Next topic....soooo...tomorrow I have the day off. This seems like an exciting thing, but it's not. I have a trillion things to do: laundry, dishes, gotta pick up a skateboard, work on my resume, work on my art, relax, eat.....and whatever else. I guarantee you that I will maybe do one of those things. I will end up sleeping in and feeling too tired to do anything. *sigh*

Yes it's tough to be me! Just kidding...I know that everyone else on the planet has to do the exact same things as me it's just I don't know how to manage my time properly. I also have no idea how to relax. Those two things I'm sure make the world of difference.
Maybe I will start planning my days know....hour by hour. I wonder if I can be that disciplined? I guess I won't know till I do it. Maybe tomorrow will be my test run.

Shit I just changed the font somehow...weird. Sorry about that friends! Sooooo......I ate a bunch of these chips at my party....chedder and sour cream.....they were disgustingly good and I know they will make me feel sick very shortly. :(
Wooooaaahhhhh so I just fixed the I'm getting smarter everyday!!

Ok I'm bored now, so I'll write again later when my mind wanders into some more interesting territory!


Monday, May 17, 2010

I'm a grown up now.

So this is my first ever blog. I'm not much of a writer so bear with me please!
As of a few weeks ago, due to circumstances at my mind numbing day job, I decided that I need to get the hell outta there and start my art career.
I don't like the word career, it scares the shit out of me. Cause it means that maybe I'm gonna do this forever....and what if I get sick of it? Well at this point I'm willing to risk it. Working in a soul sucking retail environment where all I do is convince people to buy things they don't need is wearing on me.
I've made my first ever grown up decision. When I was asked as a kid what I wanted to be, I knew it was an artist but I just have never been able to commit to it....until now!! So I feel very proud of myself. Heheheheh :P
Normally I feel indifferent to blogs and other social networking sites. But recently all these things have changed for me, I realize that they are great for meeting new and like minded individuals. I like having art friends. Well....I like having art friends that I don't have to physically socialize with since I'm basically a shut in. first hurdle is getting an art resume and statement done so I can submit to a call for entry for a solo show. This one is very proper.....EEEK!!!! I have had a solo show before but there was no need for all that jazz. I'm not worried about doing it and making it sound good, I'm worried about the fact that I'm the worlds best procrastinator. For example...I started a blog!Since when does Amber write you ask?? Amber writes when she knows that there are more important things to do! hahaha!

Ok so there you go. Short and sweet. If you continue to follow me you will have the pleasure of hearing all kinds of rants and ravings.

Bye for now!!