Inspire me.....please.

I'm in dire need of inspiration today. That dumb bat really messed with my sleep and I now have wasted literally the whole day trying to wake up.
I have a pile of art books sitting next to me, Frida Kahlo, Jenny Saville, Lucian Freud....just a few of my favourite artists. But I feel that if I look at them I might feel more discouraged than inspired. You know those days when someone elses amazing work makes you feel like crap about yourself!?
Instead I've chosen to try and write a blog post, done some tweeting and trying to do some networking. I must say that doing that stuff is rather boring, but I know it must be done if I'm going to make any money from what I do. It takes so much time to constantly update people on my every move, but it seems that is what has to be done if you want anyone to notice you! It feels a little scummy and fake but what can I do? I must suck...it....up!
I am also really hungry but not really inclined to do anything about it. What the heck is wrong with me today? Oh I know......it's because since I started back at work it has drained me, the soul sucking has started again. I have a very big, important decision to make, and I must make it soon.

Ok oatmeal time.

Arty Update

What's new with me you wonder? Well!!! Quite a bit actually! My nephew was born a few days ago......and he is super awesomely cute! ok now that I think about it that is the only thing exciting that has happened.
I'm trying to get on top of things, art wise. Clearly I am having a hard time with this as you can tell by the fact that I am writing instead of drawing. I am going to do some work today, there was just alot of other stuff that had to be done too.....you know, laundry, dishes and general cleaning. Now I'm just trying to get in the right frame of mind to draw. It doesn't help that I can hear some guy upstairs clomping around. It's so damn loud he sounds like he's gonna come through the ceiling. I hate apartments.

So I have done some arty things recently. I've been keeping a business/idea journal for my artwork. Like so I remember the shows I have done and stuff that I have submitted to. This is great for me cause I have a habit of not putting down dates, and when it comes to writing a resume I have no clue about when an event took place.
I've submitted to a few art events/shows lately. Haven't heard back yet, but hey! I don't get my hopes up about this stuff cause I think it's who you know and who you socialize with that gets you shows. And of course my problem with being anti social doesn't work for me so well.
I'm going to submit to Supercrawl for September.25th. I know it's a huge event and if I could get in there it would be great. *finger's crossed* I'm just a little concerned about my work being hung outside....what if it rains??

The Skateboard show at Loose Canon Art Gallery turned out really good! I checked it out and there were some freakin' fantastic boards. I'm really happy I got to be part of it! Thanks to anyone who went and checked it out.

Ok enough of my boring life.....I'm gonna go look for more things to submit my art to and do some actual artwork.

MAKE ART.....NOT FRIENDS!!! hahahhaha

What's up four eyes?

I spent most of today working on a new drawing commission. It's going really well and thanks to my new glasses my eyes don't feel like they are going to fall out of my face!
I still feel like I don't have enough time to do everything I need to. When I get on a roll with my drawing I can't stop....anyone who is creative can understand that I think. So where does that leave the dishes? still in the sink obviously.

It's really shitty knowing I have to go back to the dungeon again tomorrow. Don't get me wrong I like shopping for clothes and things but that place is like night of the living dead, day after day after day. Someone needs to hire a zombie killer for that place.

On a happier note, the skateboard show looks fantastical! Thanks to anyone who went out to see it! I'm sure it's up for roughly a month, though I could be mistaken. You should really check it out! There are so many awesome artists in Hamilton. I don't know why I'm so shocked sometimes. I suppose it's cause I spend my days in Jackson Square and it's hard to imagine a creative world outside that.
So I guess the art crawl was packed. I honestly don't like that stuff at all and don't usually go to art crawls...too many people :P I checked out the skateboard show pretty much as soon as it started and then went home. After standing at work for 8 hours I didn't feel like walking around looking at art. I was cranky to say the least.
But I heard there was a great turn out so I'm happy about that! I would love to be part of another group show again. It's a great way to get some art out there without the pressure of a solo show and doing it all yourself.

Well that's about all for now. I'm tired and I need to get ready to kill some zombies tomorrow....or atleast stun them with my death stare. JOY!

Really this one is about Art....I promise!

(this is not the finished piece but it pretty much looks like this!)



My skateboard is done! Well for the moment. I know every artist has those urges after the piece is complete to fix it or touch it up....which really means it's not done. It will never be done. I just have to accept and learn when to stop. I've learned this the hard way by working on something so much that I ended up ruining it. But sometimes you gotta learn the hard way! I used acrylics on the board...dollar store ones to be exact! hahaha. I had to give it a light sanding before I did my outline cause it was a bit too shiny to draw on with pencil. I haven't varnished it and I don't think I will, only cause my apt is tiny and varnish stinks.....soooo yeah, I would love to varnish it at some point but part of me is always afraid it will change the look of it and I kind of dig the matte look. I'm actually really relieved that the skateboard is done. I haven't had much time lately and I've got a few projects on the go. I find it really hard to divide my time and give each project enough attention.I have a really bad habit of biting off way more than I can chew. I have a hard time saying no to people when it comes to something artistic. I really want to be involved with different organizations and such but what ends up happening is that I can't follow through. There just isn't enough time in the day for me. Working five days a week makes it super difficult to be creative. The one thing that really sucks is that on atleast one of my days off a week I end up painting all day and the other one I end up doing cleaning and other household chores so I never get to hang out with my boyfriend :(
But anyhow I'm not gonna whine too much....I'm hoping that all this work I'm doing will at some point pay off and I will have the luxury of spending my time how I would like! Dream on right!? hahaha
Well now that the skateboard can be crossed of my list I can focus on finishing my latest pencil crayon drawing and starting the two commissions that I've been procrastinating on. Of course I also need to do a few more pencil crayon drawings just in case I do get chosen to do a solo art show at the Gallery on 4.
Oh man the list just keeps going on and on.......but I don't mind. I really want to do something with my art. I need to.